THE REAL BEAUTIFUL ME
Hello everyone, I know it has been such a long time and I don’t know about you guys but I sure have missed you. But for the first time in 2 months I took a break from writing and photo shoot as I’m getting prepared for my much-awaited work cum holiday. Well to be precise work for my dear husband and holiday for me and my little princess. It feels great just to think about not to be worried to run around doing household chores and just sit relax and enjoy. Well that is my kinda holiday ever since I became a mother. So, as I sit in my flight ready to take off, my little one almost ready to dose off in my lap, I wonder there is nothing better than to start write… in a flight! as it is going to be one of an experience!! At least for me. And of course, I have good 3 hours to spare so why not write! and open my heart out about how the way I feel and felt about myself. As I gaze at my kiddo sleeping in my lap I also can’t unseen my shrunken jeans in just 3 months of body workout. But at what cost? I stopped eating everything that I loved, I got crazily into workout mode that I wouldn’t eat more than a thousand calorie, I totally forgot about being me. What got me thinking about it? Well flight mode did the trick for me, back at home I have a lot thing to do and not think of food (even being a die-hard FOODIE) It was this moment I decided I will give myself a break, in these 10 days I’m gonna just enjoy and not worry about my calorie count and just enjoy my 8 days off. As I reach my hotel and after a good munching day I went back to my bed thinking. I realized that you should love what you have, and don’t be adamantine on that. I said to my body, ‘I want to be your friend.’ It took a long breathe and replied, ‘I have been waiting to for a long time to hear this. I apologized to myself and I think that’s where the healing begun for me.
Thank god I got this vivication before any damage, but I’m happy I experienced this awakening firsthand because I feel this is the platform where I can pour my heart and express myself through my writing to spread that positivity which we all need. And I don’t say won’t work on myself because I will do, I would love to see myself in my old clothes, I like my waist and wardrobe size, but I will not do it the way I did in past 3 months. So Instead being hard on myself, I will try to achieve my goals at a positive note. Instead of binge eating I will treat myself with one thing out of my favorites. And instead of not eating at all, I will eat that everything I love but with a maintained proportion. I’m gonna drink ah lot of water, and instead of pushing myself in gym for almost 2 hours, I will do the required 45 minutes more or less. Only because I have been hard and over controlled and the downside of that is I got bored of everything, I lacked energy, I would fight with almost everyone in my sight (accept my precious little one) only because I’m too hungry to carry conversations. LOL!! I don’t want to look like models on the cover of the mag, I want to be the person who feels great in her body and can say that she loves it. We get so worried about being pretty but let’s just be strong, kind and supportive.
And just in case you forget to remind yourself thing morning… your butt is perfect, your smile lights up the room, your mind is insanely cool, and you are doing an amazing job at life. Embrace and love yourself the way you are, it’s the most amazing thing you’ll ever own and with tiny steps towards fitness you will get there where you want to see yourself. Think yourself as a flower, they never compete to the one next to it, it just blooms. There’s no need to be perfect to inspire others, let others get inspired by how you deal with your imperfections.
Food for thought: She was the one of rare ones, so effortlessly herself, and the world loved her for it ~ anonymous